Calico Frost

Fluting is great

You know I love it

But

I miss the whole band

The community

I miss the company in the music

Now

I am alone for two months

Just a lonely flute and her melody

Next to you

Not a big deal

Natural

Normal

Eyes

Joking

Teasing

I could touch you

The bracelet on your wrist

Our bracelet

I could talk to you about it

I'd lose my train of thought

It felt nice, I guess

Not the backstabbing wannabes

But

The smell of chlorine

How it wouldn't get out of my hair

The racing swimsuit

How snug it was

Streamlined

How fast I was in the water

Everything

Is always a competition with you

Isn't it

You always have to prove you're the best when you know

We all know

You're not

Like saying "playing on the big stage is fun"

I wanted to cry

I can feel a lot of things.

Sensitive, but not like you'd think.

Not like crying all the time

Or getting upset.

I hide it well, I think.

I've learned to mask my temper