Claire

Tired.

worn out.

Stuck in daydreams,

so checked out.

It's been like this for months.

and getting worse in bumps and grunts.

the summer heat, it floods my mind

I have always wondered why she couldn’t keep me.

Sometimes I expect to wake up only to find that it was all a dream.

Was it me?

Did I do something wrong?

I was only two at the time.

I would never admit it, but

I’m broken. I have lived through a hell you only see in your nightmares. I was born into a world of agony and have stayed silent on the darkest of nights.

It's only February  

and look at this world.  

I want to know if we'll 

get through all of this. 

And on the other side,  

will I still be standing, 

People warned me,

turned against me,

said I was a fool.

Yet you I trusted 

but now that's busted. 

Still my love overrules 

And I don't wanna kill 

I’m fine.

I know I’m crying,

but that’s normal.

I’m just fine.

I feel like I’m dying,

but who doesn’t?