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Self confidence diminished

By one word

Inappropriate

I guess it's shameful to wear a top

That makes you happy

That fills your heart with love

Last summer

I tried to avoid school

but also

tried to get myself ready

for the big class

for the hard homework

the stuff that never ended up

being a problem.

Last summer

On a rocky cliff 

where the grass sways in the wind 

and the sky never seems to end, 

there lies a silent house  

where a silent woman lives. 

She does not need to speak; 

We hit the pinata

With so much joy

And so much laughter

Like we’re little again.

We pile onto the hammock

Like we’ve always done

I will admit I loved him

All his flaws disappeared

The weird way he grinned

His work-worn hands

The smell of sawdust and woods

In every particle of skin 

He was the only thing I could think of

I hate that you have some sort of power over me

Not the love of your life

Not even sure you call me a friend

You have me crying every night 

Wondering what I should change

Would you love me