ninestars

ninestars

MD

15 years old

Posts

  • a few threads pulled

    I remember when I used to

    be the favorite.

    The one that brought

    comfort and support.

    The one she would never let go.

    She took me everywhere-

    school, practices, birthday parties.

    I saw it all.

  • speechless

    Sometimes words fall out senselessly,

    no meaning attached.

    But because they need to,

    not necessarily because

    they want to be revealed.

    It's as if my pen

    has control over me,

    writing whatever comes

  • relatable silence

    It's that time of year again

    where some "news" are formed

    and some "olds" are forgotten.

    The faces of friends

    become familiar again,

    while last year's math formulas

    do not.

    We come together

  • fifteen

    I am 15, a rising sophomore struggling mentally. Can’t motivate myself to do much, still dreading the first day of school. I often find the phrase “I can’t” pouring out of my mouth as I feel out of control, laying in my mom’s arms.

  • bloodshot

    My body

    drowning in a

    hoodie and sweatpants

    knowing it won't

    and can't

    muster the energy

    to get up.

    Not that I

    need to.

    It's the middle

    of the night.

    But it seems

Loves

  • 10/23

    Today was a fairly good day. I love myself. I love my life. Read this next time you're in anguish. I'm watching October slip by like fall leaves on a dead tree. I need to find something else to do besides watching the time pass. I have no energy.

  • Glass Houses

    Throwing stones in glass houses

    Makes cracks that can be removed

    Taken down and restored

    But that does not mean there was no damage to begin with.

  • Orange pen

    Orange pen

    curving, looping, tracing my thoughts onto a page

    fulfilling my orders

    moved by my hand.

     

    Orange pen

    flying, soaring, leaping

    dancing across the page

  • Numb

    I find it absurd that the President is doing so much bad I no longer have the capacity to feel any more.

    I have become 

    numb

    numb to the fact that this man has broken so many laws you can't even count them.