QueenBee

QueenBee

VT

14 years old

Posts

  • Guilty Pleasures

    Guilty pleasures.

    I know they are.

    I know I shouldn't.

    I know all this.

    Do I listen?

    No.

    Have I ever listened?

    No.

    Checking the doc.

    Not active anymore.

    Hadn't been

  • Anymore

    I don't know you anymore.

    I learned this

    Today.

    Gone is the silly boy

    As tall as I was

    That purple beanie obsession

    We all shared -

    Tank tops in summer, Crocs all year round,

    Not anymore.

  • Bari Incredible

    You stand up

    To take a solo.

    Before, I've always smiled

    At it.

    Seeing you solo

    Is incredible -

    Just watching you -

    I may not know you,

    But I know you

    By how you play.

  • I want to cry

    I want to cry.

    I want to cry

    But I cannot.

    Graduation

    Graduation

    They're leaving

    It's finally happening and how will I survive

    What if this what if that

    Stress

    Schoolwork

  • Why

    Why?

    It's a question I ask

    More and more.

    How far

    Am I willing to go for this?

    As it gets harder

    And harder.

    Auditions.

    I have to prove to other

    People

    Actual

    Judges

Loves

  • Maybe Someday

    Ya know

    Sometimes I don’t think

    That things will ever get better

    Sometimes I don’t see

    How they really could

    But I’m not always like that

    Sometimes I think

    “Maybe someday”

    “Maybe it will improve”

  • Safe space

    Tears

    But you can’t see them.

    Maybe you feel them, though

    In my forced smile

    In my eyes

    Teacher to student, but you’ve never made it feel like that

    You’ve always made us feel like equals

  • The family you choose

    I realized recently

    That there’s the family you don’t have a choice in -

    Your biological parents, siblings, cousins -

    And then there’s the family you do.

    The family you share no blood with

    But choose anyway.

  • away

    i say goodbye and yet i find myself thinking about you again

    i think about you in the weeping willow

    singing a song of emotions that i do not know

    i wonder if given the opportunity