Posts
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Not jealous, not sorry
Your goal is to make me jealous.
To make everyone jealous.
Even your friends.
Friends? Or followers?
You're all leaders and not very good at it anyway,
And guess how that works out,
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The deal
You had my back.
I had yours.
Because that was the deal.
That was our deal.
No negotiating.
No way around it.
That's what it is.
I email you when I shouldn't.
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Thoughts
I lie awake in bed
With my thoughts -
No AC and it's hot and humid.
I open a window.
It doesn't help.
I can feel the ghost of you in my every movement.
The blankets you snuggled into,
Just last night.
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The more I think
I walk.
I walk in my head.
In my brain,
My thoughts,
My feelings.
I look over
At your hand.
Hmm.
The more I think about it,
The more tingly I get.
Tingly?
Fuzzy?
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Shaking
Shaking
Shaking
Shaking.
Will I ever feel anything else?
Crippling fear.
Shaking.
I run to the bathroom.
Tears roll down my cheeks.
My eyes
Are empty.
My heart is, too.
Shaking.
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A pawprint in clay
All I have,
For everything.
A pawprint
In clay.
That's it.
Thousands of trinkets, toys, stuffies.
Folder upon folder of random junk.
Papers and pencils and packs of gum
Loves
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Never ending
I'm running
I'm flying
my legs move
back and forth
forth and back
on
and on
and on
faster
faster
the air is avoiding me
I run from my chaser
endlessly
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You are not forgotten
When I was younger, I wasfriends with her son
They moved a lot, especially after
The divorce
But we still made time to see each other
We grew apart but
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Anticipating
I don't know what this is
whether it's summer really sinking in
or if it's something else
something more
something worse.
I don't want to turn into this
a puddle of negative feelings and boredom.
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Self-conscious and self-judgmental
Everyone always thinks that people act a certain way to please the people around them
to code switch to what everyone else would want
to blend in
and that's what I do, too
except most of what I do
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Orpheus
My whole life I have been trying to tell a story so beautiful that the world would fall in love with me.
That is why I befriended words and stage lights.
That is why I watch the details of the world
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Eye Wish
When you get an eyelash in your eye
a wish will fall in with it
each one holds memories
stained with the makeup of your life
if the memory is tainted
with trauma, fear, or pain