Conflicting feelings

I'm still stuck 

I thought I was free 

But I was so wrong 

 

I know it's not okay

But I can't resist it 

After all, it's what I really wanted right?

 

I'm trapped by 2 things 

I don't know which is worse 

One I asked for and the other is a curse

 

I bound my feet to stop myself 

But now I'm bound by someone else 

And they're dragging me out 

 

She's so good for me 

But it's so good it's boring 

I want the thrill of danger 

 

With us, it just clicks 

Bee.Lover

VT

16 years old

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  • Retract and hide

    I've recently found myself back in my shell

    Pretending to be someone I'm not

    And I think I know why.

     

    I've pulled back from people 

    Only interacting with animals and strangers online 

  • Radio silence

    I'm opening my phone

    To nothing 

    No messages, no emails, no missed calls,

    All I'm getting is radio silence 

     

    The sinking feeling in my heart returned

    The one where you know something is wrong