I am a child

I am a child

and yet I am always seething with rage

I am a child

And yet I look at what I'm eating and wonder if I'm slowly poisoning myself

I am a child

and yet I wonder how many more generations till humanity kills itself

I am a child

And yet I question if humanity deserves what it has

I am a child

and yet I looked at racism and hated my privilege

I am a child

And yet I wonder if everyone in my grade will live to see adulthood

I am a child

And yet I thought I would die in my sleep every night when I was seven

I am a child

And yet I have to scream and still no one listens

I am a  child

and yet they told me I could be anything. They lied

I am a child

and yet I have almost lost faith in humanity

I am a child

And yet I am afraid to be myself

I am a child

And yet I am afraid of growing up

I am a child

And yet I wonder if I'll die

I am a child

And yet I think I am a failure

I am a child

And yet I have to write these words

I am a child

I was a child

Let me be a child

Please

I want to

be

a

child

again

innocent

and 

oblivious 

to our ruined world

with faith in humanity

and mental stability 

please

let me be a child again