Poetry

Things are different.

I don't know when they changed

or when I noticed them changing.

But in any case,

my eyes are open now

and I see that things are upside down.

At first it was just a drop

Poetry is hard in the winter.

It is inexplicable but,

for me,

definitely true.

In the spring, summer, and fall, 

there are limitless possibilities, 

endless inspirations.

I could be writing right now

about fairytales;

princesses, and dragons,

magic, and the prince that comes to save her.

But life isn't a fairytale for anybody, 

so why write about them?

I sit down in the perfectly lined rows of old desks.

squeak, squeak, squeak.

He hands out the test, dragging his feet.

shuffle, shuffle, shuffle.

Life. So many ways to describe it. Life is messy. Life is complicated. Life can kick you when you’re already down and spit in your face, telling you to stay down, don’t get up, that you’re worthless, pathetic, a disgrace.

i try to feel more

even failure gets tired

and stops answering

i haven't seen you

in a while

i just wanted to tell you

you're my favorite

yes youre built in

related to me

yes ill always have you

but in another world

even though were states apart

i know

you're going

to give me

flowers

i know

you're going

to confess

to me

i know

i want to feel

the same way

believe me

i do

i know

i know

i know...

valentines day

less than a week away

ive never been
in love

something powered off
early

longing for someone
to notice me

i mistake that
for desire

was it a crush
or just
friendship

i saw a stranger

her face blurred

tears dripping

one

at

a 

time

numbness

expressionless

emotionless

lost.

mirror

cracked

shattered

a million pieces

some people

are scared

of needles

some people

are scared

of dogs

some people

are scared

of fire

all woven

together

to the fear of pain

pain

pain

pain.

Metalic covered by grease.

Grease covered by mint.

Mint covered by ice.

Ice covered by..

    ice covered..

ice covered by emptiness.

emptiness covered by growling.

growling covered by…