i haven't seen my best friend in six days and i've already watched all our old videos with the bad lighting & worse camera angles, clicked through the pictures of us together and got all sentimental like i have a pretty awesome life after
I could pretend to be happy
When the world is ending
And you'd all believe me
I'm a great actor
But never onstage
I can say I'm happy for you
Congrats that's so cool
When under it all
It's hard
It's really hard
When there are so many people to balance all the time
So many personalities
So many conversations
Overlapping
Talking over each other
So many big emotions
Why can the wind
Be blowing
That piece of grass down
One moment
And not the next?
There’s a scientific answer
I bet
And usually that’s what I’m looking for.
But it felt poetic that way,
I'm lost in this giant world.
Surrounded by millions of people,
but at the same time, connected to none.
They think they can see right through me.
They think they know what I want.
Today I woke up.
I stretched my arms,
brushed my teeth.
Just as I did every morning.
Except, something was different today.
I opened the foggy window
and took a look outside.
Dragon wandered through the forest,
Smiling at his bouquet
Full of bluebells and daisies,
But sighed as he remembered
It was forever incomplete.
It was what, four and a half weeks ago?
sometime after school ended
I wanted to stay for the whole time
I brought snacks for everyone
bagel chips and hummus
I'm running
I'm flying
my legs move
back and forth
forth and back
on
and on
and on
faster
faster
the air is avoiding me
I run from my chaser
endlessly
Underwater
it's nearly silent
incredibly quiet
all sharp sounds softened by the waves.
Underwater
all of the loud, nagging noises of life fades into a faint murmur
bearable for once.
Underwater
If I'm being honest,
I'm not sure I'll survive,
These demons,
I battle,
Fighting for my life.
They find me at my weakest,
Where no light shines through,
When I was younger, I was
friends with her son
They moved a lot, especially after
The divorce
But we still made time to see each other
We grew apart but