Writing

I wish I were the girl you clung to.

The girl you look for.

I wish your feelings were mine.

I wish I were the girl you wanted me to be.

The girl who would listen, not lie.

I wish you could trust me.

Together, sitting, writing, talking.

Sharing dreams for the future.

Hoping we'll still be friends years from now, when we don't see each nearly every day.

I have always thought about the future a lot

It was always college

And ivy league goals

And 4.0 GPAs

And all night study sessions

In kindergarten you were told 

you can not wear your light up sketchers.

“Why they’re new?” you whine.

In kindergarten you were told 

i was hooked

obsessed

for years

you were

my escape

my life

you helped

me

become visible

feel alive

valid

am i

invalid?

the last

time i saw

you

you talk too loud

too much

i try to tell

you

to stop

you dont listen

overpowering

drowning me

with curiosity

too loud

overbearing

asking too much

i dont want to to