Writing

Why did you think I would bleed when the knife rose pools of ---- out of me?

It wasn't blood.

It was my hope that you were a good person.

I found out my answer.

I'm sorry.

And I guess that's all I can really say.

I watched them fall

watched and I couldn't do anything

at Columbine

at Sandy Hook

at Parkland.

I couldn't do anything

Hello fall

Hello, fall with warm colored leaves and a washed away breeze.

Hello, cold mornings and warm nights, so pretty.

Hello, watching scary movies as you cozy up in thousands of blankets.

you. 

you're a golden boy 

born to shine in the sun, 

but cast to the dark of night,

drenched in moonlight. 

you change like the times when you see me, 

The edge of the world

is not a finality;

it's a beginning.

you are.

and: you don't have to be. 

let yourself exist.

sleep in late.

make your favorite foods.

hug your shoulders, your knees, not to hide behind but to marvel at.

you are marvelous.