afterdark

afterdark

PA

15 years old

Posts

  • Attention Seeking

    I shut down a lot

    I don’t know why I do it.

    I can’t control it,

    but for some reason

    the voice inside my head

    says it is because I am

    attention seeking.

     

    I know I am not.

  • We Called It Love

    I decided I was in love with you

    before I knew what love was.

     

    I had never felt true love.

     

    I mean, I had felt love.

    I had loved my family,

    the color pink, music.

     

  • Case file

    I love it when you call me

     by my name.

    When you label me.

     

    Like a doll sitting in 

    the display. 

    Read out my description.

     

    Learn my characteristics.

  • Slack line

    I walk a fine line.

    Life and death.

    Funny and weird.

    Smart and dumb. 

    Waiting for a light breeze to blow me one way.

    Will I stay on this line forever?

    When will I get off?

Loves

  • barbie

    dear diary,

    today is Christmas and I got a new Barbie.

    she probably doesn’t like me because

    i still haven’t taken her out of the 

  • gratitude

    last year on my birthday

    i wished for a soulmate

    i didnt get one

    not in the way i thought i would

    but i have you

    maybe you were what i was wishing for

    i know youll always pick me

  • happy birthday

    i blew out the candles

    and made a wish

    i wished for love

    like i always do

    but something felt

    different

    more melancholy

    like maybe i wont

    get my wish

    i have my whole life

  • louder.

    its starting to ring

    the noise in my head

    telling me im feeling

    something i didn't know

    i was capable of.

    its getting louder

    the sirens

    the warning

    i dont have a chance

    at surviving