Nothing anymore

For years when I would look at your face, I saw my future, my life, my whole world in your eyes, but today I for once just saw your face. The same lips that I had once longed to kiss, the same eyes that I would get lost in, yet I felt nothing.

The cold, indifferent tone that always made me cry didn't hurt me this time, your words had no effect on me, they meant absolutely nothing.

You sat next to me and tried to engage with me as you always do when you get bored and want your personal jesters company, but instead of butterflies in my stomach, I felt nothing.

My heart no longer yearns for you, my mind no longer lingers on you, I don't plan my words out carefully as to not push you away, you mean nothing anymore.

Late at night, I still dream of you and I, the good times we had. Those moments are long gone now and I doubt we will make new ones, as you give nothing to this relationship.

 

I'll always love you though, nothing will ever change that.

Bee.Lover

VT

16 years old

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