Poetry

I'm walking on a balance beam

I knew this would happen.

We all work so hard for this

You do too

We try to include everything

Every article

Every story

We can't

We have page limits.

She was a smart girl

She was pretty

She was kind

She was hard to get

The only thing in the world she lacked

Was how to be in a relationship

She sat alone at lunch

She walked alone in P.E.

Orange pen

curving, looping, tracing my thoughts onto a page

fulfilling my orders

moved by my hand.

Orange pen

flying, soaring, leaping

dancing across the page

Are you aware

what you did?

For the third time?

Once again?

Do you know

how I feel?

Ignored

overlooked

how come?

How come you didn't put in my effort?

I used to love fall

nostalgia, pretty leaves

now time flies faster.

I used to have friends who visited my house

just to say hi

who biked by

without a trace of jealousy of any boys I liked

I had rice and bean soup for dinner

the rice was swirling in the broth

there was a single bean in my spoon

and just as I thought

I am the bean

the bean sunk beneath the surface.

Try,

Always try your best,

even

when it seems like

the world is ending,

always try,

because it can always make a difference.

o beautiful vermont

speak to me

tell me the tales 

laid in your leaves 

tell me about the lovers who have hung from that tree 

all the sap drained from those trees

how to get to paradise?

it's dark. 

you wouldn’t know that if you looked at me, 

of course

you wouldn’t even know i’m there

transparent, lucid,

I find it absurd that the President is doing so much bad I no longer have the capacity to feel any more.

I have become 

numb

numb to the fact that this man has broken so many laws you can't even count them.

I don't know

what's going on.

I am stressed

not consciously

but nevertheless...

I had a dream

they were all fighting

some sort of twisted combination

my school life

orchestra life

When did I become

the kid who skips Halloween?

The kid who asks

to be picked up early from parties

agrees in the first place only because

she feels obligated?

When did I become