Poetry

i wanted to be a writer

collected words to form my thoughts

                              to dictate what i felt but couldn't say

Once, we believed in the Tooth Fairy,
a girl in glitter with sparkly wings,
who would sneak in the dark,
to swap teeth for quarters,
as if they were treasures,
as if our childhood decay
was worth more than gold.

Am I the rainbow or the rain that makes it?
You ask, but it’s me asking, too.
Do I paint the sky with color,
or am I the prism that bends the light?

One voice says: You are a song played in a minor key,

What a beautiful season

Yet i wish I knew what was going on

Behind my back

The memories I wish were gone

It happened right in front of me

But my eyes were to blind to see

Was it all a lie

i know all the words, of course. who doesn't? we are practically

brainwashed into our knowing, having to stand and face the flag

(when did you learn that it was hand over heart &

People say I should be--

Pristine

Presentable

Profitable

Prominent

Pretty

Petite

Polite

Pleasant

Perfect

Which one?

Life is a gift

no one deserves

to lose.

One hundred murders

were committed

in my city this year.

One hundred humans

deserving of rights

were killed

in my city

this year.

Why did you think I would bleed when the knife rose pools of ---- out of me?

It wasn't blood.

It was my hope that you were a good person.

I found out my answer.

I'm sorry.

And I guess that's all I can really say.

I watched them fall

watched and I couldn't do anything

at Columbine

at Sandy Hook

at Parkland.

I couldn't do anything

Hello fall

Hello, fall with warm colored leaves and a washed away breeze.

Hello, cold mornings and warm nights, so pretty.

Hello, watching scary movies as you cozy up in thousands of blankets.

you. 

you're a golden boy 

born to shine in the sun, 

but cast to the dark of night,

drenched in moonlight. 

you change like the times when you see me, 

The edge of the world

is not a finality;

it's a beginning.