Poetry

Night fast approaching.

Sitting in chairs looking on at the mound of wood.

An elegant bird rising destined to fall.

Then a light.

Small yet growing fast.

Then in a second the bird catches.

It's always the goodbyes that are hardest

especially when you've gotten so close

after years of distance

it's worst when you don't end up getting to spend the time you wanted to spend with them

I’ve always wondered

What it’s like to be myself

Openly and honest

And not hiding behind bookshelves

Waiting for someone to see

And let me into their heart.

A guy is knocking

i want to go to a place that doesn't exist.

i want to go to a place that will never come.

i want to go to a place that is nowhere.

Or maybe i don't want to go to a place.

Summer always meant clear skies to me,

With a never-ending supply of sunshine,

And a night that would never arrive,

Where time is paused mid-afternoon,

And I'd bask under its rays lying on lush grass,

My neighbor is doing Duolingo across the street,

He’s in his sixties learning a new language

And I’m just eating leftovers, watching him,

Wondering if he’s practicing French for his husband.
 

Card

after card

after card

it keeps going

the stack endless

the family tree sprawling

stretching

growing

by the second.

I have to write it all down

My ankle hurts

because I stepped funny

at the very beginning

of my very own bat mitzvah party.

I might've twisted it

I don't really know

but I can't sit a certain way

otherwise the pain returns

sarcastic jabs and quippy lines

I hope you know I usually don't mean it

and I know my best is not enough

but that's what being human is all about

I don't have to worry about perfection

I will overcome compulsions

It

was

terrifying.

Nothing more

nothing less

it could only be described as that.

I was shaking, actually

I don't know why I was so scared of doing this

Fireflies and sun

Thunderstorms that shake the house

Summer has returned

I'm opening my phone

To nothing 

No messages, no emails, no missed calls,

All I'm getting is radio silence 

The sinking feeling in my heart returned

The one where you know something is wrong