Poetry

As soon as

I sense the slightest tinge

Of anger

I

Run from myself

Nononono 

You know what happens when you get mad

Just play

And so I play and play

I'm burning

I'm burning myself out

And I will take everyone down with me

All my relationships

Myself

Burning

I want to

Just lose it

Just say what I mean

I'm so tired of this

"Yeah I get it".

No you don't.

No, you don't!

Like fire

My temper

Everywhere.

I haven't been truly angry in a while

Not that I'll ever let you see.

Angry that he

The brick

The songbird sings of hope

Hope it does not own

In pure silence, it copes

Aching all alone

It ensures joy to all

To all but itself

These metal bars trap me

But they will never catch my mind

It sees things others can’t

If they someday do, they will find:

An endless, magnificent sky

I hate that all that's left

of your memory

is a couple of Polaroids

A couple of photos I snapped because I didn't know what else to take photos of

I hate that.

Nothing could ever capture your spirit

Clumsy

Clunky

I've had bad days but not like this

Why isn't it falling into place?

It feels like I'm forcing my fingers to move

And they're not in sync with my brain

the room smelled sweet 

sweetness a mix between

the sterile and calm

a sweet temptation just out of my reach 

Teenage love is different from adult love,

we love hard,

raw.

We love with the hopes that we will find the one,

innocent to the ways that the 'one' will change over and over again,

Looking at you two

as you "dance" on the "dance floor"

which is really just an empty spot on the ground

as you hold hands awkwardly

though enjoying it

as you experience feelings that I've never experienced before.

I've recently found myself back in my shell

Pretending to be someone I'm not

And I think I know why.

I've pulled back from people 

Only interacting with animals and strangers online 

This is from a much longer story in verse I'm writing, so it's quite out-of-context, but I really liked how this stanza turned out.  Sometimes, like today, just one perfect-seeming part lights up my day.