Poetry

I'm opening my phone

To nothing 

No messages, no emails, no missed calls,

All I'm getting is radio silence 

The sinking feeling in my heart returned

The one where you know something is wrong

To me,

The words hope

And light

Are interchangeable;

To me,

Perhaps it is hope

That will let us see clearly

your mother/ hacked together skeleton wings into two-part pieces/ bleeding stars, you thought/ neurons fizzing out/ you had all the time in the the universe/ your eyes dripped down/ the back of your spacesuit/ a so-called prodigy ghost/ acid smoke

Long, exhausted bars of light in my window
Chase away the late night that came before them,
And prime me for the next one.

Stinging my eyes

The tears come

Pouring down

Relentlessly.

Still breathing 

Still warm

Yet dead 

To me

And me alone.

Grief floods me

Again 

I'm drowning 

You say you want someone real,

like every second we spent together was a dream,

or a nightmare,

I don't know how you think of us.

You say you want someone real,

Our fathers

Mothers 

Daughters

Sons

Have fought 

When there is no time to sit

When there’s no more patience 

For our world 

We stand 

And fight

And win

From the beginning of creation,

Women have been underneath the growing nation.

We sat and were forced to watch for decades,

Underneath what men called “the shade.”

But submission is temporary.

Home is the place ,

that you feel safe,

where you're not scared,

 you don't hide who you are,

it's a place where you're surrounded by loved ones,

people who make everyday perfect,

 Truth is a view and  truth is a lie 

That’s always stood as time passes me by 

As time passes I’ve come to wonder 

Can truth be a blunder 

A blunder to one rarely to all 

the Midwest is a snake eating its own tail.

get out get out get out is the head, beating in time with the heartbeat of every new baby born in these states, 

The pool deck is wet

It smells like chlorine

I am no stranger to this

I know the swim caps and goggles

I know the way of being a swimmer

The way you either are or aren't

How could I not

I loved it