Writing

When your Ex-Bff asks,

Are you okay?

You know you look like tears are about to stream down your face,

I was sitting alone at a table,

I can hear people muttering about me,

But I don't care, 

He's just a guy,

So why does he matter to me?

Well, 

I should,

I guess,

I mean,

He's been my best friend for years,

almost 4,

but,

I found out he's moving,

to a different school,

I lay in the grass,

Staring into the big blue sky,

And wonder,

Why is the sky blue?

Why is the grass green?

I'm in my classes,

Listening to the teacher,

Wondering,

Grades are tanking

hope is failing

I am a pile of busywork and small talk

a job I need to pay for my dream

a dream I've given up on

it's safer to give up than to pursue

pursuing hurts more than it's worth

"Dear Gretchen (ctrl c, ctrl v) 

Thank you for applying to [college]. 

Why do you make me feel safe,

Just to turn your back?

Why do you act like you’re a friend,

Just to terrorize the rest?

I want to save you from your fears,