Fainting Goat

Dear World, 

I am teenager. I am on the cusp of life, a time when my entire life is ahead of me yet I am beginning to feel as if some parts of it are behind me. 

I just need a paper and some pencils. 
Maybe some pillows. 
And a cozy light. 

My elusive

Smile

Hides my joy

What a wonder

Here they are

Playing

Dancing

Singing in tight harmony

Something I know I'll never do

Almost every day I wear a hoodie.

To hide a part of me that I can’t escape.

It shrouds my difference from the world.

So that I can seem normal.

So I can fit in.

So that nobody can pick on me about it.

Every day at school is chaos.

The noise

The people 

All the people 

Sometimes I want to hide in a corner 

To get away.

To recenter myself.

So that I don’t break down.

I am unique 

I have hearing loss 

I feel as if it is harder for me to fit in 

I feel as if I am a puzzle piece that can’t fit