Calico Frost

My virtual home

where I can make my words dance and no one can change the choreography

where I can be loved by other people like me

where I can realize that I'm not as alone in the world as I originally thought

This is when all my thoughts merge

into one big cloud

chasing me everywhere

demanding things

this is when I answer

when I walk home

when I contemplate reality

life

existence in general

I try

to strive in life

to get things done, to win

to be on top of everything

it's hard.

I've learned

that a concept

like life is hard to grasp

you have to learn to hold it, but

I'm sorry

but for what, you might ask?

Some people know

other people don't need to know

the point is that the message gets across.

I get it

I didn't mean to lash out at you

well, actually I did

Orange pen

curving, looping, tracing my thoughts onto a page

fulfilling my orders

moved by my hand.

Orange pen

flying, soaring, leaping

dancing across the page

Are you aware

what you did?

For the third time?

Once again?

Do you know

how I feel?

Ignored

overlooked

how come?

How come you didn't put in my effort?