QueenBee

I should be soaring sky high above the rafters

Crashing low against the waves

Burning like the sun but I will never be

Up there I will always be

Down here so

I'm bringing it

I'll tell you a story

Spending time

All my time

In the place that became home

And I have friends coming back to parents saying

"She's

Obsessed she won't leave

That room

She's

Spending all her time

There"

Avoidance.

And that's the thing

That drove you and I apart

That made the click less magnetic

Flipping the sides over

So we couldn't do it anymore.

I need to talk about it

To get it over with

Failure.

It's not a familiar word to me

Because I am never failing unless I know

I haven't tried hard enough

Been my best

But that was failure.

Not by me,

By them,

I let myself cry

And it felt like my heart was being ripped out of my chest

Exploding

Shattering into the sky

I felt like I was dying

Each day it gets easier

But when it catches up to you

I'm so old

I know I'm not really but

It feels like it.

Like I'm a teenager

For real this time

Like I'm normal

And my parents trust me

And I can text?

And I'm normal