QueenBee

Conflicting feelings in my brain

In my heart

As I lay awake,

Not entirely sane.

Conflicting thoughts, all knotted up.

How do I untangle,

Fix what I've lost?

How do I make sense of it?

There should be a word

For ages thirteen through seventeen.

There should be a word

Like childhood or adulthood

That describes

Being a teenager.

Adolescence is one, yes

But it doesn't fit.

Schoolwork

Homework

How exciting.

I think my teachers are trying to kill me.

They assign lots of assignments

Worksheets, sometimes a quiz

Normally I wouldn't mind

But I'm not a math whiz.

I wanted to stay there forever

Under that tree with you.

I wanted to lie there

Live beneath the sky's blue.

I wanted to look at the constellations at night

And name the clouds' shapes in the daytime.

Irreplaceable

Is us

You and I

Together

Joking and laughing from things like the weather

To ghost cows and weird books and crazy ideas

To fanfictions and emails and drafts we'll never send.

I don't believe in love at first sight.

I don't believe in miracles

That happen overnight.

I don't believe in princes

With perfect hair and smiles

And I don't believe in fairy godmothers