QueenBee

QueenBee

VT

14 years old

Posts

  • Lagging

    I thought

    I'd be fine on my own this year

    After being shown the ropes

    But...

    I didn't realize how much of a lifeline you were

    Until I was stranded

    Didn't realize I fell further and further down 

  • Being

    To be praised

    To be wanted

    To be called talented and know it's true

    I am not full of myself

    But I am nothing if not confident

    Nothing if not sure

    Absolutely positive

  • Careful

    And it feels the same

    But in the worst way possible

    And I hate this 

    More than I hated last year

    At least last year

    I cared

    What I wouldn't give to care now

  • Back

    And it's all back

    Full-fledged

    Only it's... worse?

    It's harder?

    And I am completely "fine"

    And "enjoying myself"

    And "fitting in".

    I take the homework home

    And complete it within half an hour.

Loves

  • My writing

    My favorite type of writing

    is when I'm in the zone

    I'm typing

    no hesitations

    just plugging in all of my honest thoughts and opinions into my somewhat-anonymous profile

    spinning deeper and deeper into my spirals

  • A Lingering Memory

    I never wanted him to let me go… I just wanted the old him. But I guess letting me go was the best option for him. Still, it hurts to think that those times are now just memories.

  • What I want

    My favorite season has begun

    stark white against the grayish brown of stick season

    filling in the gaps between colorful fall and crisp winter

    well, fall and winter are both crisp

  • doors

    i get tired at school

    sometimes.

    it's not like i am not interested

    it's just when there is yelling

    and fights

    and darkness in your house

    you don't sleep very well

    especially when the ghosts