QueenBee

I think you make me really happy

I think it’s sort of all-consuming

I think I want to be with you every second

Of every day

I think maybe what keeps me up at night

Is replaying you

Replaying us

You’re different

With all of us

Versus just me.

You’re different

With a whole crazy friend group

Than you are when it’s us chilling in your basement watching Stranger Things 

People want things from me

This incredible group of people

They want me to mediate

To laugh

To help them with x, y, and z

They want me to come with them

Pulling me in different directions constantly

A childhood obsession, sure.

That's how it started.

But it's all I am -

It's who I am -

It's the deepest

Truest

Version of myself I could possibly be.

The notebook.

Stats and tracking

When we talked about college

Four years away for you

Five for me

You want to go to MIT

"Math", you said

4.7% acceptance rate

Buddy, trust me, if anyone can make it it's you and that's not even bias,

My therapist told me not to punch waves

I think it was supposed to be a metaphor

I don't punch waves

I throw myself into them

Relentlessly

Until I can't feel the pain