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I have a secret

It’s getting harder to hide

I love you so much

It hurts inside

I have a secret

When I 

Hear you talk

About your distant

Boyfriend

I feel lost and sad and…

I miss you like I miss my childhood and good God,

I think it's because that's what you were.

You were a childhood fantasy and now you are gone

we're

two teenagers who don't look when we pass in the hall

I would look at one and smile

see a teenager with cupid bow lips

see deep brown eyes, too big for them

see off center and crooked features

see too round of a face, too sharp of a jaw

They don't think I notice

They don't think I notice how stingy we're becoming:

They don't think I notice the reluctance to use the propane heat.

They don't think I notice how cold it is when I crawl out of bed every morning.

I want to know how it feels to lie in your bed and stare at the ceiling.

I want to know how your sweatshirt would fit over my shoulders.

I want to be a melody stuck in your head.

I have 2 brothers

One is 11

and one is 3.

My house is never

ever

quiet.

I used to want an older sister.

To borrow clothes from.

To talk to about boys.

To show me how to put on make up.