QueenBee

I'm nervous

And I'm scared.

Meeting new people -

Not my thing.

I can be outgoing

I can be anyone they want me to be

Anyone who will be liked

But me

I will thrive

And it all

Meant

Nothing to you

Right?

Did I -

Was I -

I'm never wrong

I'd scream until the sky fell

And drown in my own fever dream

But you could never

Never

Shattered moments

Gathering in my mind

Like when we went blueberry picking

And gave up on it

Because there were only a few ripe ones

And Z taught me that the green ones are actually pretty good 

What's wrong with you?

Why can't you take a joke?

Why don't you ever go anywhere?

Why don't you talk to anyone anymore?

Yeah, I know.

Nostalgia

I love this place

This camp

Third year

With my cousin best friend

And...it feels like school

There are people from school

Which

Even if I like them

Makes me tense up

I

t o r e

all the flowers down and

p u n c h e d

the waves until they 

s h a t t e r e d

like icy glass and I

c h a s e d

the grassy road till its end

s t o m p i n g