QueenBee

Summer is just around the corner

And I can feel it.

I can feel it in the trees' blossoms under my fingertips,

Every dandelion I pick for a crown that always droops,

In how the mud sinks into my shoes,

There are

So many things.

So many things

So many people

Want from me.

Is it too much to ask for a break?

Am I allowed to

Have a few seconds to myself or

Am I just a machine?

Is it weird if

I want to tell you I love you?

Is it weird that

I want to hold you

While I still can?

Is that weird?

Maybe it's

Just me being

Emotional

Or something.

Is it weird that

I think

I might miss this.

I might miss your smile

And the way it feels when you laugh

And

How we could talk about anything.

I might miss

Those precious few minutes spent together

Every morning

The second I feel

Used or neglected

Abandoned or judged

Hated or pitied

Is the second I slip away.

Even if it's in my own head

And not real.

Even if you were trying to love me.

There's a moment in my mind

A calm before the storm

The part of the song where we all fly

Before plunging down to darkness.

There's a moment when I can feel my blood