Sawyer Fell

Sawyer Fell

PA

20 years old

Posts

  • Pomegranate

    She conjures the list of groceries for her monthly run 
    to the local shop that is spelled with an extra “pe”--
    and for whatever ancient reason, it is spelled like that --
    the rectangular sheet of lined paper only says the word

  • Coming of Woman

    I never understood certain phrases as a girl.
    “She wears her heart on her sleeve,” they told my father
    And he would agree and I would play smart 
    And I would agree despite my own obliviousness.
  • Iced Chai

    I have never been good at trying new foods.
    I tend to stick to the usual; waffles, dino nuggets, goldfish, and such…
    Whenever I try something new it is monumental.
  • A Reminder

    I keep reminding myself that this journey is not linear.
    That the unbroken skin isn’t calling to make it dirty again.
    That my presence shouldn’t have to shrink with growing insecurities.
  • How Was It?

    It was beautiful-
    It was rushed like the people of New York
    trying to arrive at their final destination.
    It was long overdue like all the library books I store 
    in the corners of my room that collect too much dust.

Loves

  • Providence

    Sweat gathers everywhere as 

    I climb the golden pavement. 

    The known ways, the known faces 

    are waves in the sound. 

  • death bed

    You push me out to sea

    With every toll life takes. 

    My wood is deteriorating 

    With thousands of years. 

     

    I've held village girls

    And I've held mothers. 

  • Unbecoming

    The streets have teeth and we hold our fingers with enough space for the others and drink cider on a corner where the ceiling above us blinks blue-blue-blue onto her tonsil-pink dress and someday I hope I never have to see it in a suitca

  • january to july

    in the months of darkness and cold, i never stopped writing.

    i just kept it all to myself. every night, my own religion

    pages of pen poised on paper, pouring my heart out

  • Acceptance before Change

    On September 2 of 2022, I packed three short sleeve shirts, two long sleeve shirts, and four pairs of pants into a backpack and left my house in Sharon, VT, for four months on an intensive expedition semester school: Kroka Expeditions’ L