Poetry

I can’t breathe

No matter how hard I try

I’m still gasping for air

Drowning in the silence

Or in the noise

My own mind

Suffocating me

The trees talk,

you know?

They talk and if you listened

you would know,

they whisper

like kindergarteners

who can't stand straight in lines

but they can jump straight

I thought

I'd be fine on my own this year

After being shown the ropes

But...

I didn't realize how much of a lifeline you were

Until I was stranded

Didn't realize I fell further and further down 

To be praised

To be wanted

To be called talented and know it's true

I am not full of myself

But I am nothing if not confident

Nothing if not sure

Absolutely positive

We sit out on the sand,

The fog covers the sky,

And blankets the world,

Like a shield. 

The waves nip at our feet,

The water's cold

But I'm warm because you hold my hand,

Songs that flutter a relieved life.

Useless to many since of the questions,

And furrowed brows for

Never did they wonder

Till now.

I can say thousands of words, but you don't even hear one...

I can scream at the top of my lungs, but you ignore me...

I could have tears streaming down my face, but its still always about you...

It hurts because...

One night,

Every session,

Of every summer,

We go stargazing.

I look up at the sky and try to see everything,

I try to take in the moment,

It only lasts so long.

Advocate for yourself,

Believe in yourself, Have

confidence in yourself, Keep your

dignity, Remember, not

Everybody is perfect,

Friends come and go,

"Be the change you wish to see" is something like the golden rule. 

If you wish others to be kinder, 

Find that within yourself.  

If the world needs a hero, 

Become a hero. 

And I'm here again and I love it

Away from my friends

Away from my peers

My teachers

Here with doable expectations

The stage lights glinting off my glasses like melted candlelight

And it feels the same

But in the worst way possible

And I hate this 

More than I hated last year

At least last year

I cared

What I wouldn't give to care now