It is probably true that I'll be better off without one... eventually. It's just hard to see sometimes, because I still think about her and everything, except now she's even further away and my opinions are completely meaningless now, which feels really devaluing. It also hurts to know that she'd rather dump me than change for the better, like I'm just not worth the trouble. The fact that I am trouble stings. I shared and devoted my whole life to her during the few months of our relationship, and she just turned her back one day and was like "Yeah, no," and walked away (metaphorically). We had our disputes even while we were dating, but back then I still believed she still loved me and wouldn't give up on us. Now that's gone, and all the wrongs that have happened and I thought I was over come back to haunt and torture me. And I haven't even started to mention how I miss having a hand to hold and everything. It all really turns your world upside down. But maybe it'll pay off in the long run. Maybe the scars just might heal and make me a better (and hopefully more emotionally stable but I highly doubt it) person somehow some day. Sorry for the rant, heh
But yes the idea of having a relationship is very appealing, so I totally get that you might feel like you're lacking one. I wish I were in a good relationship, and I don't really care who as long as they care about me and support me and stuff. That'd be really nice. But with how many marriages end in divorce, it's hard not to get pessimistic about my chances...
But hey being single isn't that bad, and it's probably for the better so it's best I just try not to ruminate on it too much and instead try to actually get my life together. Wish me luck, and thanks once again! <3
I have the same feeling (except instead of missing a relationship, it's just the general lack of having one lol). It's true that there is a lot more to life, and you might have been worse off staying in a relationship that wasn't working well. Hope you feel better soon :')
I mean technically they did kind of change, but only for the worse and they're not getting better, nor have they changed in the ways I wanted them to change. Also I'm just really impatient at this point lol
I've been trying to cope with something similar by telling myself that it's just one person - with flaws and everything - and there are others who care (which isn't enough for me sometimes but it's nice to recognize). And that life's a lot more than just them (or love in general) anyway, so it's not worth thinking about (but I still think about it :/) and it's better to focus on other things that are much more enjoyable or important (but I still get distracted lol. Still this stuff helps me feel a bit better haha)
But let me tell you this: You will survive, and one day, you will find a way to live again. (Honestly I think all teenagers are just surviving even when they look like they're thriving, so it's nothing unusual really, which is kinda sad but at least we're not alone)
Thank you :')
It is probably true that I'll be better off without one... eventually. It's just hard to see sometimes, because I still think about her and everything, except now she's even further away and my opinions are completely meaningless now, which feels really devaluing. It also hurts to know that she'd rather dump me than change for the better, like I'm just not worth the trouble. The fact that I am trouble stings. I shared and devoted my whole life to her during the few months of our relationship, and she just turned her back one day and was like "Yeah, no," and walked away (metaphorically). We had our disputes even while we were dating, but back then I still believed she still loved me and wouldn't give up on us. Now that's gone, and all the wrongs that have happened and I thought I was over come back to haunt and torture me. And I haven't even started to mention how I miss having a hand to hold and everything. It all really turns your world upside down. But maybe it'll pay off in the long run. Maybe the scars just might heal and make me a better (and hopefully more emotionally stable but I highly doubt it) person somehow some day. Sorry for the rant, heh
But yes the idea of having a relationship is very appealing, so I totally get that you might feel like you're lacking one. I wish I were in a good relationship, and I don't really care who as long as they care about me and support me and stuff. That'd be really nice. But with how many marriages end in divorce, it's hard not to get pessimistic about my chances...
But hey being single isn't that bad, and it's probably for the better so it's best I just try not to ruminate on it too much and instead try to actually get my life together. Wish me luck, and thanks once again! <3
Lol this made me smile I love how light hearted it is, great piece!
Yeah that's basically what I do but it's hard specially when like I've known them forever.
I agree with the we are all just surviving.
Same library, different stories.
The rhythm in this is amazing!
I have the same feeling (except instead of missing a relationship, it's just the general lack of having one lol). It's true that there is a lot more to life, and you might have been worse off staying in a relationship that wasn't working well. Hope you feel better soon :')
I mean technically they did kind of change, but only for the worse and they're not getting better, nor have they changed in the ways I wanted them to change. Also I'm just really impatient at this point lol
Yeah, same lol. :)
Really? I feel like everyone just changes and I stay the same.
Tough.
I've been trying to cope with something similar by telling myself that it's just one person - with flaws and everything - and there are others who care (which isn't enough for me sometimes but it's nice to recognize). And that life's a lot more than just them (or love in general) anyway, so it's not worth thinking about (but I still think about it :/) and it's better to focus on other things that are much more enjoyable or important (but I still get distracted lol. Still this stuff helps me feel a bit better haha)
But let me tell you this: You will survive, and one day, you will find a way to live again. (Honestly I think all teenagers are just surviving even when they look like they're thriving, so it's nothing unusual really, which is kinda sad but at least we're not alone)
Oh I can imagine it all right T_T
I can even imagine the straw hat as my very heart lol