C-L-S

That ship has already sailed he told me,

like I didn't remember he didn't want me.

But I remember quiet clearly that I'm the one he doesn't love,

what hurts me is that I'm still in love with him.

I love you,

I lost you,

I have a really hard time moving beyond you.

But it's okay because you're happier without me,

and I still have our memories,

that should be enough to get me through eternity.

You push my feelings aside,

so they try to hide. 

But I already know you will see them,

my heart is full of mayhem.

Maybe it was my fault,

but the rejection on my heart was assault.

Laying in bed staring at the ceiling,

the only thing left in me is this numb feeling.

I search for a grasp,

a grip,

a clasp,

of anything I could hold,

but everything is gone,

I'm empty.

I find comfort in the shadows,

they hold me while I fight my battles.

Arrows fly and crash against the dark figures,

they hold me even when I pull the trigger.

Their are flames in my eyes,

that are burning me alive.

As I swallow back tears,

that are like gasoline to the fire inside.

I sit and I wonder if someone will ever stop the pain,