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"Why are you sad, my dear?"

My mother asks me again and again, 

But my mouth won't open; you can't hear

the words that are caught in a cold, metal chain. 

I can't tell her how hard I yearn

I can't breathe, 

I haven't felt like this in a while. 

I thought it was getting better, 

But I'm still drowning in screams. 

Breathe, 

Take some air, you deserve it. 

The flower petal was from a lily, 

It was white, light, and innocent. 

It floated on the top of loathsome water, 

It appeared lonely, slowly deteriorating there. 

It's endless,

The loop of love. 

I fall into it once,

And it feels like I'll never escape. 

It's like I'm tied to myself,

Suffocating in thousands of knots,

Tied by you. 

I feel so hopeless, 

Every second, every minute. 

It feels like my heart beat is out of rhythm, 

And the measure shouldn't be completed. 

This is the only way I know how

for my girlfriend who gets me roses,

but not just any plain old red ones,

but flowers in my favorite color,

and she knows that I love them. 

for my girlfriend who gets me presents,