QueenBee

Spending time

All my time

In the place that became home

And I have friends coming back to parents saying

"She's

Obsessed she won't leave

That room

She's

Spending all her time

There"

Avoidance.

And that's the thing

That drove you and I apart

That made the click less magnetic

Flipping the sides over

So we couldn't do it anymore.

I need to talk about it

To get it over with

Failure.

It's not a familiar word to me

Because I am never failing unless I know

I haven't tried hard enough

Been my best

But that was failure.

Not by me,

By them,

I let myself cry

And it felt like my heart was being ripped out of my chest

Exploding

Shattering into the sky

I felt like I was dying

Each day it gets easier

But when it catches up to you

I'm so old

I know I'm not really but

It feels like it.

Like I'm a teenager

For real this time

Like I'm normal

And my parents trust me

And I can text?

And I'm normal

You created memories

And then got to move on

Leaving them untouched and perfect

Mine are being trampled.

Walked all over by my friends

My peers

I can't DO this

This constant emotional bombardment