Poetry

There’s a flower growing in the dirtiest of pits,

Rotting in the sewer,

Mildew seeping from the grate— untouched,

Bypassed by those who don’t stop to wait.

Buried,

A wisp of a wish— restless,

I am from mythic hues of orange and blues, 

Where the setting sun greets the gentle waves.

From solemn mornings and soft bed sheets,

To boisterous cackles and tire swings,

I am from the jostling of jewelry—

I fear death
The way I fear the end of a song
Like I fear my favorite part being gone in an instant
A moment I can never get back
A note I experience only for a blip

My body is a universe
My freckles are the stars
The planet Venus is my lips
My teeth, they come from Mars

Mercury is in my brow
The furrow that you see
My thighs are Jupiter, you know
In the galaxy of me

I’m a little overgrown 
But to this world I still am green
Neither fresh nor am I wisened
Somewhere deeply in between

Here is where you can rest your tired bones after a long day

On this earth you feel connected within every part of yourself

at all, 

1, 2, 3, 4, 

all go in and out the other side, 

it's always been this way, 

kindergarten and getting in trouble because I could not solve,

2 minus 5. 

I will always remeber the border, 

a line that is so man made no animals see it, 

a line that is so man made you have to prove your worth to get to the other side.

I will always remember the fear I had, 

Do you ever grieve something

that isn't even over yet?

It's like you know

that's it's going to be gone anyway,

that you're going to miss it

so much,

To have survived this long 

despite the world’s penchant 

for beautiful dead girls,

Is that not magical in itself?

The heart is an arrow

It demands aim to land true, 

it leaves us

You trap me up

Like you could chain

My beaten heart away.

You build your walls

And sorrow calls

To say that you have changed. 

The prison now

Stands still and dead

No matter how far I run

how loud I scream

how hard I try

I'm never fast enough

never loud enough

never good enough.

Because even if I am,

I'm not.