QueenBee

QueenBee

VT

14 years old

Posts

  • Storm

    I love this feeling.

    The wind on my face,

    The fire under my skin

    Doused by the rain.

    The ominous clouds overhead.

    My natural state it what the storm is,

    Right now.

    It's just how I've always been.

  • I don't

    I don't

    Open at your words

    Your touch

    I don't

    Listen to

    Anyone anymore.

    I am completely in my head.

    I know we don't have time for this mess.

    I do it anyway.

    I don't

    Pay attention.

  • "I don't care"

    "I don't care," I say.

    Don't care.

    Don't.

    Do not.

    Don't want to.

    Can't.

    Scared to.

    You look at me.

    Ask, "What about your friends?"

    Yes, what about them, self?

  • I was

    I was...what was I?

    I was happy.

    I was free.

    I had such a rush of a year

    That I forgot...everything else.

    Full steam ahead

    Days blurring

    Like a train.

    Plowing through.

    I warned myself.

  • Did I really?

    You said

    I seemed relaxed.

    Not tense,

    Like I feel,

    Constantly.

    Not curled up into a tight little ball

    Against the world.

    You said 

    I seemed loose.

    I don't feel loose

Loves

  • Solidarity

    I can't believe it

    I've never mentioned it for almost a year now

    it turns out that I really can keep secrets for this long

    from even myself

    from the universe

    from everyone else

    from my confidants.

  • Relentless

    I screwed up.

    Again.

    Same damn wound, reopened—

    blood and shame mixing,

    staining every step I take.

     

    I'm tired of putting on a show 

    I will learn this time.

    I am stuck, really, 

  • She Smiles

    She smiles

    Like she doesn’t feel

    The weight of

    Expectations 

    On her shoulders

    She smiles

    As if she didn’t 

    Spend last night

    Crying in her room

    Slowly breaking

  • Lonely Rhymes

    Today I thought I looked pretty

    It must have been a trick of the light

    I can't fall asleep in this city

    I wish that you'd come stay the night.

     

    Last week I talked to you for hours