Poetry

I need to create something that tears your soul open,

I want to write words so meaningful that it digs into the tiny corners of your heart that can't be found by anything else.

You are my ride or die,

you're going to be my forever,

or my ending,

and I guess in a way that makes you my forever either way.

How I wish I was a fairytale;

How I wish I wore gowns perfect

for twirling, and

how I wish I wore perfectly crisp

button-down shirts and

immaculately embroidered jerkins;

How I wish my eyeshadow really was

My face is a mix of my parents'

I have my dad's eyes

And hair

I have my moms features

And skin tone

But it all pulled together

To make my face

My face with brown hair and eyes

Pink lips

My hair is brown

It doesn't have highlights

Or a red tint

It doesn't shine

In the sun

It's just brown

It's not long

Or layered

There's no light brown

Hidden in the dark brown

If your eyes were the ocean, I'd swim in them.

If they were the sky, I'd fly in them.

Collecting crystals as blue as your eyes,

I wonder what I could see inside?

I was given

A single crimson rose

Once

I loved it,

Took care of it,

Cut the stem because it was too long.

I kept the stem too

Imagine being in a place 
that everyone promised was safe, 
yet being chased 
by a weapon 
at the age of only eleven. 

& the sun through the windows & a clapping song playing

on the speakers, 45 degrees outside & almost sunny

& nothing to do, well, a lot to do, but the sun through the windows

new converse, christmas lights strung up til march, arcade pizza glistening with grease, red hair dye, burnt-off fog, rain, i think, or the dew on grass, dark lip stain, tracks in fresh snow, heavy vanilla, old lemon peel, pink ribbons forgotten o

Some people don’t stay

like mountains do.

They arrive like weather —

soft, sudden,

changing the air around you.

They sit beside you

on ordinary days

and somehow

make them glow.

I don't know what is wrong with this world to make a young girl think that her body, when looking in the mirror, is ugly because her tummy is full of food. Oh.