QueenBee

I had rice and bean soup for dinner

the rice was swirling in the broth

there was a single bean in my spoon

and just as I thought

I am the bean

the bean sunk beneath the surface.

I don't know

what's going on.

I am stressed

not consciously

but nevertheless...

I had a dream

they were all fighting

some sort of twisted combination

my school life

orchestra life

When did I become

the kid who skips Halloween?

The kid who asks

to be picked up early from parties

agrees in the first place only because

she feels obligated?

When did I become 

Welcome to the world

that never gives anything back.

If you want it

you work for it

if you don't

you're letting everyone down.

You'll fall in love

and you'll hate it.

I am

burning

this is not unusual

for me, the radiator

but this isn't

I'm freezing it's cold outside

friends grab me for warmth because

I'm a human sun

sunny smiles 

sunny skin 

Sectionals

is the equivalent of a curse word.

He warned us not to complain

I did anyway.

It's chaos

no one listens

nothing gets done

unproductive

I hate being useless.