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Storm
I love this feeling.
The wind on my face,
The fire under my skin
Doused by the rain.
The ominous clouds overhead.
My natural state it what the storm is,
Right now.
It's just how I've always been.
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I don't
I don't
Open at your words
Your touch
I don't
Listen to
Anyone anymore.
I am completely in my head.
I know we don't have time for this mess.
I do it anyway.
I don't
Pay attention.
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"I don't care"
"I don't care," I say.
Don't care.
Don't.
Do not.
Don't want to.
Can't.
Scared to.
You look at me.
Ask, "What about your friends?"
Yes, what about them, self?
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I was
I was...what was I?
I was happy.
I was free.
I had such a rush of a year
That I forgot...everything else.
Full steam ahead
Days blurring
Like a train.
Plowing through.
I warned myself.
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Did I really?
You said
I seemed relaxed.
Not tense,
Like I feel,
Constantly.
Not curled up into a tight little ball
Against the world.
You said
I seemed loose.
I don't feel loose
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How do I say goodbye?
Culmination.
Wrap-up.
Climax.
Soon to be the end.
The end of what felt like forever.
How do I tie up the ends of my life like this?
How do I say goodbye
Loves
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a hopeful revival
Unexpected
but a blessing.
Or at least what I hope will be one.
A surprise
something I normally don't like
but this time
it's different.
It's different because it's you.
Because you reached out
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We will learn
Teenage love is different from adult love,
we love hard,
raw.
We love with the hopes that we will find the one,
innocent to the ways that the 'one' will change over and over again,
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You Two
Looking at you two
as you "dance" on the "dance floor"
which is really just an empty spot on the ground
as you hold hands awkwardly
though enjoying it
as you experience feelings that I've never experienced before.
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Separation
It's always the goodbyes that are hardest
especially when you've gotten so close
after years of distance
it's worst when you don't end up getting to spend the time you wanted to spend with them
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Not Fun
It
was
terrifying.
Nothing more
nothing less
it could only be described as that.
I was shaking, actually
I don't know why I was so scared of doing this
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Maybe some day
Maybe some day
I will be as good
as the others.
Some day
I will be able
to look in the mirror
and feel pride.
Maybe some day
I will love myself
with no strings attached,